no more vtuber model :(

 so like years ago i was tryna move files around on my pc and i must've messed things up really bad cuz when i was tryna clear space on my pc i deleted what i thought to be old files but they were not so my model got deleted by accident. oopsies. i cried for like a solid bit. but its okay i will get over it and i have to look on the bright side and allow myself to learn and do better. also re arrange my pc. 

i prolly wont have a model for a while, and idek if i wanna stream games, or stream overall. im not really sure what i'd stream... so as of right now i will prolly focus more on creating art and learning how to use live 2d more, which like seems kinda impossible now that i dont have a model to work on, but whatever.

i hate fye

hello guys, im fucking seething. so basically right i was in FYE the other day and I saw that they had the gundam miku figure!! the banpresto evolve miku gundam right, and i was like oh wow its so pretty and cute so i called my bf and was like hey do i get this it's this much money he said yeah and so i got it, but i feel like it was a bootleg???

i opened it up and like saw that the bangs weren't nearly as transparent as I thought they would be based off videos i saw later on, but i was like okay maybe it's just paint differences its fine, i saw other videos where the bangs weren't nearly as transparent, but okay. but then i kept looking at her and theres this giant like spray painted blue blob on her chest which i assume i shading, but looking at other videos its not nearly as blue or it doesnt even seem like they have it?? so im really confused as to what it is or why its even there?? 

and then i started examining the box, i was like comparing it to unboxing videos and stuff and i was like, okay, the box looks real, but like, i realized her little hair antenna, the ahoge, was literally going the complete wrong direction. both the drawing and photos on the box are leaning to the right, but mine is going to the left? so this like REALLY pissed me off cuz i was like how would they even get that wrong unless the mold just isn't the same? cuz it doesnt look like it's glued on or slotted in, so what even happened??? besides that everything else looks the same besides some of the paint.

the paint is chipping in multiple places, and there's also random scuff marks and paint in different places where i feel like they shouldnt be, and the molding on her legs looks really messed up too, like theres a giant flat mark where it looks like someone got a hot knife and just held it against her leg, making it flat. granted, it's a prize figure technically, so i shouldnt really expect like craaazy good quality, but this is like insane compared to the videos i saw online? i watched four videos (i'll link them) and they all kinda varied but ultimately, they all had the same things in common; her ahoge was facing the right, there's no random blue shading on her chest, and the molding on her legs wasnt all janked up. 

i'm really pissed, i still have all my receipts and stuff, but i dont even know if ill be able to get my money back. the receipt says i can only get the same item if the product was opened or damaged, and liek yeah its definitely opened how else could i see it was a bootleg, so im genuinely pissed and i hate my life and i hate this stupid bootleg gundam figure that i got out of impulse when i shoudn't have.

also the girl on register signed me up for their membership without telling me it was a subscription service so i also have to figure out how to get rid of it before they charge me next month. its like $12. i hate my stupid chud life

edit: my bf is taking the figure cuz i dont think i wanan go through the hassle of going to the nearest FYE to not even be able to return it and if i keep it in my room im going to throw her at the fucking wall out of anger so hes taking over custody of her stupid piece of shit fake miku 

Gen Z and Employee Burnout

    I'm taking a management class and was assigned a blog statement (like here!) and decided to talk about Gen Z's employee burnout and mindset in the workplace, i thought it would be cool to copy and paste it here :)     

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    Gen Z started working around 2017, and with their entry they introduced a new mindset to the workplace: boundary setting and strong values. If employees don’t feel valued in their office, people often job-hop to find new positions that offer better pay and workplace wellness. However, this could be seen as disloyal, disrespectful, and lazy by other older generations, such as Boomers, who grew up with a hustling or grinding culture. The differing mindset in the workplace creates a tense atmosphere for almost everyone, but it primarily falls on younger workers.

By rejecting the hustle culture, younger employees feel the need to slow down and focus on who they are outside of their job, which allows them to find the energy to continue working the next week. Gen Z’s mindset of prioritizing themselves directly contradicts the current workplace industry, where employees are expected to pour more energy into overtime, and it’s hard to keep these values in check, leading to burnout. Gen Z employees face burnouts not even a decade later, and they experience the highest rate out of all age groups. Andrea Yu wrote the article Why Gen Z workers are already so burned out and stated, “A 2021 survey from jobs website Indeed showed millennials and Gen Z workers were reporting the highest rates of burnout, at 59% and 58% respectively. Reporting rates among Gen Z were increasing fastest; in 2021, 47% of Gen Z said they were burnt out, compared to 53% of millennials.” With employees feeling this burnt out already, it’s important to consider other factors that directly affect their mental health, such as the current economy.

Andrea Yu continues to talk about the different stressors that Gen Z has, specifically the lack of financial instability at the normalization of hustle culture. Gen Z has to pay for all the typical necessities: housing, transportation, student debt, and healthcare, but the problem really stems from how the cost of living is rising faster than salaries. Employees are forced to pick up more hours, which is almost expected nowadays, but with a new emphasis on mental health, employees are left feeling more exhausted than ever and almost hopeless. Yu states, “…A US census data analysis shows median home prices increased 121% from 1960 to 2017, while median household income only increased 29%. Currently, rising inflation is pushing up prices around the world, and worker pay is not keeping pace, intensifying struggles.”

Even with extra hours at work, it’s typically not enough for people to live, which leads others to pick up side hustles or second jobs, and even with those extra efforts Gen Z still faces backlash from older generations, saying that they don’t work hard enough and that they’re unloyal to companies, but with the way that employees are being paid it’s understandable to job hop to places that offer more pay and workplace wellness. Once you’re burnt out, it feels almost impossible to continue doing what you need to do, and with the added stress of side jobs, financial instability, and people insulting your efforts it’s understandable to put more emphasis on your well-being.