new year and new goals!

    i've never been the type of person to care about new year resolutions and goals, it was always something that just seemed like extra work to me. as i've gotten older, i've realized how important the ideas and people i surround myself with impacts the way i grow, so i decided that this year would be the year i really get my shit together and create some new goals!

    last year i went through the early 20s phase of losing old friends and finding new ones that align more with how i am as a person, and losing these people made me realize how judged and awkward i felt in a space where i should've been able to be myself freely. my hobbies and interests were always something i hid because i felt like people would think i'm weird if i expressed them, but honestly i kinda don't care about what people think anymore!

    i want to re-explore my love for drawing, even if i'm bad at it and even if people think it's weird. i really like drawing ponies and i don't care if people think i'm weird for that! once i start posting my drawings on here i also plan on posting them on other platforms, such as X/Twitter and Instagram, and hopefully one day i'll feel confident enough to open up commissions! 

    i also want to puruse a streaming side hustle/career with my boyfriend, specifically vtuber streaming (i like the anonymity). i started liking vtubers in early 2020, and HoloMyth's debut really pushed that interest into a new hobby i wanted to pursue someday. i really really want to design my own model and rig it, it'd be really cool to see a project that big come to life (literally!), so i hope to finish that maybe before summer or at least during summer. 

    once i start streaming and having my little art side hustle/hobby on the side, i plan to start a small merch store where i can sell stuff related to other vtubers and IPs that i like, like MLP, animal crossing, and all that other stuff. it would be a dream come true to also sell merch of my own vtuber design, but i'll only be able to start thinking about that once my model is made.

    i have big plans for myself and i'm super excited to see them come to fruition, i've never really had plans like this before but i know that if i actually put some effort into this i can really make it come true. i'll keep myself accountable and post updates here for whatever i do, but i'll also probably post smaller things about myself too.

cheers to a new year and new goals! ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎