confusion

 hello! i haven't posted anything in a little cuz my desk has been a mess and i just didnt wanna clean it up so i never went on my pc lol but im cleaning it now. oopsies!

anyways i'm trying to find a good balance between having fun and locking in on schoolwork, which really sucks cuz i deadass dunno how to lock in on school. i feel like every advisor ive had has been just as confused as i am with classes, and i'm already a semester behind. i was originally in bio for like a year but then switched to management so i have a bunch of credits that are going unused, and now i gotta use more money on classes cuz i didnt plan properly. idk, its really annoying to feel so confused about school and have no one to really talk to to help guide me, but also is that just a skill issue? i know plenty of other people who figured out what classes to take and stuff so idk why i'm having such an issue with it. at this point im just complaining and that doesnt really do anything for me so i might as well just accept it and do what i can to figure stuff out.

besides school being annoying and stuff i have a lot of things i wanna do creatively and i feel like the more i research the more excited i get. i haven't posted anything yet but i promised myself i would have something by the end of the month so expect something soon maybe... but like i might get live2d someday soon so i can finally start thinking about a model and streaming! theres a student discount for like $50 for 3 years which is HUGE so i might get that once i look into rigging more, and once i find a design for myself i really really click with. 

ive also been getting a bunch of insta ads on sticker, keychain, and poster manufacturers, so im really excited to just start creating some stuff soon to test like products and stuff, and maybe ill make a few things to give out to friends and family. idk, thinking about future endeavors gives me a lot of hope and makes me happy. i hope i'm able to use that happiness to find a drive to complete school and whatever else. not that i wouldnt complete school. but yk.

ill post a drawing soon and hopefully more entries on my life soon, as long as my desk stays clean lol.

also personal thank you to my boyfriend slay hes getting the first test keychain and sticker i make

edit: okay so my lovely boyfriend just paid for my live2d program (?!?) so i guess ill start practicing the program now and  try to cook up a design faster!!! so excited but holy cow

edit2: honestly live2d isnt terrible to use i think i can get the hang of it in a month prolly, just a lot of videos to watch and learn from! wish me luck ...